"We can't just stop [change]. We're not rocks--progress, migration, motion is . . . modernity. It's animate, it's what living things do. We desire. Even if all we desire is stillness, it's still desire for. Even if we go faster than we should. We can't wait." (Tony Kushner)
1. I used to adore shredded beef tacos. Now I prefer fish tacos.
2. I cut three trees down in my front yard. I've replaced them with plants and sparse but growing lawn.
3. I swore by PCs. Now I don't know how I ever lived without my Mac.
4. Soon I will sell my car. I'll use public transportation for the 10 months that follow.
5. Summer Institute 2008 ends tomorrow. I have 14 new friends.
Change. For years, I looked for tacos similar to the ones I loved in Tempe. The missing three trees left scars still present in my front yard. I just got rid of my PC a few weeks ago, even though I hadn't really used it in months. I'm ambivalent about selling my car. All week, I've felt a little melancholy about the end of SII 2008.
Change can open new opportunities. Sometimes I need to convince myself of this. . . . Or wait until I feel new possibilities.
Life moves me forward, whether I like it or not.
What do I desire? Love. Loyalty. Strength. Spontaneity.
Progress.
Comments (1)
Hey, there -- I'm catching up, and it looks like you're having a grand summer. I'm enjoying reading about your time with your family and your preparations for next year. Even if this post sounds a little wistful, it sounds like having to figure out how to make this transition is really energizing. And you got the Kindle! I'm looking forward to hearing more about that.
Posted by Sam | July 30, 2008 7:30 PM
Posted on July 30, 2008 19:30